Is This the Cost? The Penalty I Pay?
Garth Baxter, Composer / Libretto by Lisa VanAuken
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From: Lily, Act II, Scene II
Category: Opera Aria
Instrumentation: voice, piano
Original Scoring: Voice and orchestra
Arrangement: Piano version available
Is This the Cost? The Penalty I Pay? is Lily’s tragic final aria. She sings it after hearing of the death of Selden, the man she loves.
As the emotional culmination of the opera, the aria confronts the devastating consequences of misunderstanding, social pressure, compromise, and lost love. Baxter’s setting gives Lily a final moment of grief and self-reckoning, bringing the opera’s tragic arc to its most intimate point.
This aria requires emotional depth, vocal control, and a strong sense of dramatic finality. The singer should allow Lily’s grief to unfold with intensity but also clarity, preserving the dignity of the character in collapse.